It’s been a week ….. and it’s only Thursday.
And my spellcheck is trying to tell me “week” is spelled wrong so now I trust no one.
Anyway – it’s been a week.
I don’t really know whats happening but I need it to stop.
I’ve had all kinds of issues – mental, physical, inside/outside, all over the world.
And yesterday I snapped.
You know when you’ve had too much, right?
I always do.
I get frustrated and I get upset and then I start to cry.
And once I start crying I just cry and cry.
It’s like my body has been WAITING on me to release however I’ve been feeling and it doesn’t stop.
It’s not all at once either – it’s like off an on depending on how I feel.
I cried when I got home from work and running my errands and I cried last night so hard it was unreal how fast the tears were coming out of my face.
And I really wasn’t sure why this was happening to me.
I’ve felt stressed because of many things, I’ve been tired because I have not been sleeping, things are changing in our lives and it’s happening so fast and I just got in my head and lost it.
I hate when I feel this way.
It’s not me – I don’t like it – but sometimes I feel like I NEED to feel this way.
But this kind of day gets it all out.
It gets overwhelming in my head sometimes and I don’t really talk about it but I know I need to and I honestly feel like these really bad days, which is what this was, is helpful in a horrible yet releasing way.
Even though I would rather not – I need it.
We need to get out of our heads… we need to follow our hearts…. we need to be honest and open no matter how hard it is…. we need it.
No matter how terrible yesterday was I do feel better but now 100%.
I got a little bit to go – but I’m working on it.