This weekend was the 100 Mile Yardsale which I NEVER participate in.
I did this year – thanks to my Sister In Law that had on the CUTEST outfit in her snap story and I said oh girl – where did you get that?!
We gotta be twins! LOL
So here’s the thing – after I bought it and wore it OUT of the house…. I went negative.
I bought this. I absolutely LOVE it. I put it on and think oh it’s cute can’t wait to wear it. I get to work and INSTANTLY I’m like “I hate this I look ridiculous! Everyone is gonna think I look so dumb. Why did I wear this” etc etc.
I have such a horrible relationship with my body and with clothes that the second I’m not wearing black shirts and black yoga pants I think I look horrible. Ridiculous. I hate everything about it. 
But why? It IS cute. It DOES look good. It’s 100% me. And yet I tear myself apart when I leave the house. 
I am supposed to be working on being nicer to myself – my therapist and I discovered I don’t have very good self-talk. And here I am NOT being nice to myself.
Why do I do this? I’ll never know. But I’m posting this as a reminder that it’s all in my head. I’m doing it to myself. Because I think this outfit is fire 
and I just have to convince outside the house Ashli to agree. 
So why is my self-talk SO negative?
I’m not sure.
But I’m working on it.
And if you have the same problem I dare you to put on something you’d never wear and leave the house.
You’ll feel better when you do!
xoxo
